Most people I feel like do what they can to fit in and not stand out in the crowd. They try to be cool and popular… I’ll be honest, I tried this approach once too. It didn’t work. So, I am who I am and the way I figure it, if you don’t like the way I am, that’s your loss not mine. During my reviews at my job now, I am always told they wished I could act more professional and I tell them straight out, it’s not going to happen. I’d rather have fun at work and last time I tried “acting professional”, I turned into a very bitter person. Instead, I smile and I sing out loud and don’t really care who hears me. I’m a full-time custodian at a High School and when I’m singing, the guy who works with me will often tell me that a kid would look at me and smile or look at me weird…I just don’t care. I will sing to my hearts content and then, when I’m out of breath, I’ll sing some more. I make up most of my songs about my co-worker because quite honestly I don’t know the words to real songs haha. It’s an awesome life and I love to do it, and this year more kids are smiling at me and saying hi instead of pretending they don’t see me, so you’re welcome to all custodians for giving us a face. I’m weird and I don’t plan on changing….
Category: Random
Ugly Rug
I work at a furniture store and I hang out with the people that set up displays in the store a lot. They often talk about how ugly a rug may look and ask me what I think. They asked me again about a rug on Tuesday and it brought up some thoughts in my head because I know that they could probably get it pulled and never shown on the floor again. There’s people out there who see things in life and say “That’s ugly”, no matter what that “thing” may be. The truth is though, someone could come into the store, see that “ugly rug” and be moved to tears. It could bring up a memory of their grandma’s or parents who maybe had the same sort of rug in their houses growing up and that memory could lead to more memories of their loved ones and so on. It doesn’t matter what we think, it could be ugly in our eyes but absolutely beautiful in someone else’s eyes. I hope to find the beauty in more things from now on…
Positive News | Small Businesses Helping Eachother
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There could be a hundred positive news stories and one negative one and the news channels would pick the negative one. I’ll try to post some positive stories on here to restore faith in humanity and help you find your smile!
“I’m Living The Dream”
I say this to everyone who asks how I’m doing. Some say it’s fake and I’m a liar. In some respects, they are right, I’m not always living the dream. But that’s only if you look at it one way… is my dream to clean toilets and pick up trash from others and feel like I’ve wasted my life? Not really. But because of the work I chose, I get to accomplish some dreams. Personally, I get to have shelter, a bed to sleep in, food to eat, luxuries like tv/tablets/phones/etc., streaming services, this blog, etc. Other exciting things are the fact that I get to have a ministry that one of my part-time jobs feeds into and I get to give money to things that I care about and that are changing lives. I get to sponsor four kids who I hope will live better lives because the help I’m able to give them. That is the greatest dream. One of my biggest goals in life is to have an overflowing funeral with people that I have helped in one way or another. I am not a good person, I have my own demons I’m fighting day in and day out. I make mistakes, I do stupid things. I do hope that I can do some things though that will make a positive change in the world and I don’t want to just be wasting breathe and waste this life or taking up space in this world that someone better could take. I am grateful for what I have, but I am happiest when I get to spend my money on others. I am selfish though and find myself buying junk I really don’t need but get anyways. What’s your dream? Are you living it? How are you living it?
Someday maybe people will see me and it’ll point them to Christ. They’ll wonder how I can be so happy and find out that it’s because of my faith in God and they’ll want that as well…. It’s a dream, we’ll see at the end if it happened or not.
God bless.
Movie Thoughts| Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker
** THERE ARE SPOILERS PROBABLY SO DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN’T WATCHED THE MOVIE YET AND ARE PLANNING ON WATCHING IT. COME BACK AFTER AND READ IT THOUGH :)**
I watched this movie yesterday with my dad and enjoyed it. Some movies leave you with the sense of being able to conquer the world (usually the superhero ones do this for me), while other movies don’t really do any of that, but are good and have powerful meanings behind them if you really think about it.
Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker is one of those types that didn’t leave me wanting to conquer the world, but it was entertaining to watch and the more you think about it, the more you’d realize how profound of a movie it really is. It shows you that although you may have a bad past or that others may have “destined” you to do something, you are not held by those expectations. You have the ability to create your own destiny, and in the world we live in I think that is extremely important to remember. A lot of people might look at their lives and say “Well, I’m this way so I have to act this way” or “I was brought up with this as my surrounding, so I have to follow in those footsteps”. In reality, we can be who we want to be, if you want to change the world, do it. No one is stopping you from doing amazingly extraordinary things with your life, except for yourself. A lot of times that is where we get lost, we think we aren’t strong enough or aren’t capable of doing something, so we don’t even try. We just sit back and let the world pass us by and don’t dare to dream of bigger dreams for ourselves. This movie exemplifies that you can dare to dream big dreams and you can accomplish them. Rey was “destined” to be on the dark side, and yet she dared to dream of a better life, and instead conquered the dark side, and she was willing to give up her own life to do it as well. Ben was doing everything he could to be a major player on the dark side, but the world had different plans for him and he became a powerful helper for the Jedi force. I know that last one kind of goes against what I’ve been writing about, but you’ll have to work with me on this one. The world is going to tell you sometimes that you can’t do something and allow your fear to conquer any possibilities of good things happening, just like in the movie when they were losing all hope because the darkness was playing tricks on them, but than there’s that still small voice that tells you to keep hope alive, and when you listen to it, you realize you were never alone at all but you have had an enormous community of friends and family backing you every step of the way. Create your dreams and follow your passions. If you fail, so what. If you fall down, so what. Get back up, dust yourself off and keep moving forward. You may get hit and take a few steps backward, but regain your strength and step foward again and again until you are living the dreams you have envisioned.
God bless and don’t forget to smile!!
If you have any success stories of you following your dreams, make sure you comment below or email me and let me know! I’d love to hear them!!
Positivity | My Thoughts 2020
I am a product of my surroundings, if my surroundings are negative than I’m usually pretty negative and the opposite is true as well. But that doesn’t give me the right to blame others for how I am because as though that first sentence may be very true, it’s also true that I can affect my surroundings as I wish to do, if I want to be more positive, I can create a more positive atmosphere around me by telling jokes, making people smile and laugh and see the positives in life. That will in turn, create a more positive atmosphere within myself and the energy keeps growing and growing. I started this school year by telling one or two people a joke of the day, now it has spread throughout my whole area and they come seeking the joke to give them something to smile about. The jokes are obviously pretty bad, but it’s the way I portray them, usually after telling a joke I will crack up myself and laugh hard, that creates that happiness that is contagious because a lot of the time the joke could be horrible but the others will laugh with me because I started it. Don’t let the negativity of the world drag you down, instead shine YOUR light into the darkness and create positive moments that will spread like wildfire! God bless and thank you for all that you do!!
Be Radiant.
Everything changed for me in college, I wish I could say I deserved all the good things that have happened to me and that I worked hard to achieve what I have achieved. I’d be lying though, it was God all along. Every time he has opened my eyes to the greater purpose I could have for my life, I have forcefully shut them again and gone down the wrong path. I was part of a christian organization in college called Campus Crusade for Christ. Through my years as part of that organization, I became more and more prideful, to the point where I would think I had something to do with the success of it. I had nothing to do with it though, it was and will always be God. He worked through ordinary people to do extraordinary things, he brought people together that would remain friends to this day. You know Steph Mox that I have talked about on this site in the past? She was the beginning, she was the glue that held our group together and continues to shine in ways I could only dream of. Her husband’s light combined with hers has reached places that I don’t know if I’ll ever see in my lifetime. I took a different route, one that not many college graduates take in life, the path of a custodian. When you think of grand jobs, I guarantee you never think of a custodian as one of those jobs. It’s a job of little thanks, lots of messes and lots of just blah. It’s the perfect job for someone who needs to learn how to serve others without getting praised for it. Because of “Cru”, I had acquired the taste of serving others. It was something that I felt as a “Christ-like” person, I should be good at doing and strive to do more often. The thing is, I really really like praise, I really really enjoy awards and the pride of making things happen. That, my friends, is why I am who I am today. I am not a good person, but instead I struggle with pride. To the point where I get literally angry if other people don’t understand how good I am and if they can’t be as good as I am, then to (heck) with them. I don’t deserve this life and I don’t deserve the great things that have happened to my life. I am a sinner in need of a savior and my life is a total mess. But, that’s where my faith starts to shine through. I know that Jesus died for me, and I know that with his strength and through Him I may find a light that has always extinguished the darkness within me. He opened my eyes to the needs of the world and given me the jobs to accomplish those needs. I have one wish, one real dream….. that is that at the end of my life, I will have an overflowing funeral with those who I have helped in one way or another. You may not understand and that’s quite alright, I don’t understand it either. I do understand one thing though, that’s that I have been given everything in life so that I may use it to help others. I don’t always like helping others or doing what I have to do to help them, I complain all the time at work because of it and swear a lot because of it. But, in the end of the day, when I remember the scriptures that have been instilled in me, I remember that it doesn’t matter what I want or how I feel….it just matters that His glory be seen and His will be done. I started a ministry fund in college, since than I have added to it and when I prayed for a sustainable way to add to it, God answered me. I became poor. Well, to some they said I was poor, I never felt poor because I had everything still. But, through that, I picked up a second part-time job and a week or so later, got Full-time at my main part-time job. Being full-time allowed me to get back on my feet with that paycheck and live off of that paycheck, making my second part-time paycheck open to be used to grow my ministry fund. After a year or so of being full-time, that’s exactly what I did. I have been blessed with being able to sponsor four kids, donate to a survival program for newborn babies, and do countless other things with the money that I have earned. The greatest joy in life doesn’t come from owning gadgets and gizmos and the latest technology, it comes from getting letters from kids and hearing about how you are changing their lives. I am a horrible person, a worldly person, but God has used me to do extraordinary things. I will never deserve it, I will never be able to earn it, but it was a free gift that was given to me and I cherish it more than life itself. Cleaning toilets for a living just got a new appreciation from me, it allows God to work through me and it allows Him to teach me how to shed this pride and depend SOLELY on Him. Every hardship sheds new light on how powerful God is and the magnificent things he can accomplish if you put your trust in Him. I pray you will give Him a chance as I have and see if he can spark a flame within you that will burn bright and be Radiant.
God bless