“I’m Living The Dream”

I say this to everyone who asks how I’m doing. Some say it’s fake and I’m a liar. In some respects, they are right, I’m not always living the dream. But that’s only if you look at it one way… is my dream to clean toilets and pick up trash from others and feel like I’ve wasted my life? Not really. But because of the work I chose, I get to accomplish some dreams. Personally, I get to have shelter, a bed to sleep in, food to eat, luxuries like tv/tablets/phones/etc., streaming services, this blog, etc. Other exciting things are the fact that I get to have a ministry that one of my part-time jobs feeds into and I get to give money to things that I care about and that are changing lives. I get to sponsor four kids who I hope will live better lives because the help I’m able to give them. That is the greatest dream. One of my biggest goals in life is to have an overflowing funeral with people that I have helped in one way or another. I am not a good person, I have my own demons I’m fighting day in and day out. I make mistakes, I do stupid things. I do hope that I can do some things though that will make a positive change in the world and I don’t want to just be wasting breathe and waste this life or taking up space in this world that someone better could take. I am grateful for what I have, but I am happiest when I get to spend my money on others. I am selfish though and find myself buying junk I really don’t need but get anyways. What’s your dream? Are you living it? How are you living it?

Someday maybe people will see me and it’ll point them to Christ. They’ll wonder how I can be so happy and find out that it’s because of my faith in God and they’ll want that as well…. It’s a dream, we’ll see at the end if it happened or not.

God bless.