Yesterday I was spending time with friends helping them clean up their new house so they could move into it. That’s when I got the first call, it was my mom and she told me that my aunt who has been fighting cancer just went into a coma and they expected her to live only three more days. That hit me hard, she had wanted me to visit her for a long time so we could take a train down to Chicago and spend the day taking photos of the scenery (she was a very good photographer) and I was excited to do that with her. I kept pushing it to “someday soon” because of work and how I kept feeling like I had to work to get money to pay the bills and such. Well, when I found out she had three days left it finally hit me that that “someday soon” would never come. The biggest regret of my life to this point I think is that I never took the time to go do that with her, because she was so excited to do it as well with “her boy” (as she called me). I decided to drive home earlier than I was expecting and I cried the whole way home, which I understand isn’t safe to drive while you’re crying, but I couldn’t stop thinking about my aunt. Luckily, God was helping me get home because I did speed a lot on my way there. Well, my mom called and told me to call her back when I got home and when I was close I called, my dad told me I could come over and play some games with him and eat some food there, and so I did and when I walked in the door, my dad gave me the news. My aunt had passed away.
The thing that gives me some peace is that while I was down at my friends house, him and his wife prayed over me and prayed that she would go peacefully, I feel that since those three days didn’t last and that she did go sooner…that the peacefully prayer was answered. No more pain, and I prayed I’d get to see her again someday in Heaven.
I’d wish for that to be a “someday soon” but I realize that we have two choices on this Earth, to do nothing or to do something. We could do nothing and just cry and grieve over our lost ones, and they could die and we could go on with our lives. Or we could do something and grieve over our lost ones but do something about it, live differently and allow them to continue to live through our actions and words. We can become more loving, more forgiving, spend more time with family, friends, etc. I hope to do something….and who knows, maybe I’ll still make it down to Chicago with my uncle and we can honor the memory of my aunt through our pictures.
Don’t let work control you, spend time with those you love because “someday soon” may come sooner than you think and your time with those you love could be lost. She is gone, but never ever forgotten.
thank you and God bless….